Our Growing Family

You'll have to excuse the lack of writing over the last few days.  I have been in a lot of pain and unfortunately had to increase my pain killers again, which I really didn't want to do.  I can't think straight when I am in pain and find it hard to string two words together let alone write much.  Two days of not doing much more than sitting on the sofa and I am feeling a little more comfortable.

 It is very much a feeling of deja vu.  Last year I was in the same position of taking many weeks to recover from surgery.  The pattern was the same, I did too much, then my body told me to completely stop everything and rest.  I need to listen to my body again, and stop listening to the voice in my head.  It is nagging me to get up and get on with things.  Stop being lazy.  Get off your ass and do something.  Stop indulging yourself. So what if you are ill, get on with it!  I feel guilty because I am ill.   What is that about?  Why do I feel this way.  Nobody is judging me.  I'm not answerable to anyone, but still I feel I should be 'doing something', especially going back to work, even though the doctors have signed me off.  Sometimes we are own worse enemy.

On a happier note, my dear friend who used to visit me when I was recovering last year bringing big bags of pick and mix has sent me a big box of goodies.  Unfortunately she has moved away but as soon as I saw the box I knew what would be in it :)  I don't usually bother with sweets, but when I'm poorly the sugar hit perks me up, and then makes me feel sick because once I start I can't stop!

We also ate some green beans from the veg patch last night, they were delicious, not like the tough old things you get in supermarkets.  They will be on my list to grow next year. Eating things that I have grown gives me so much pleasure.

Another huge happy is that we have another grandchild on the way, they bring us such joy!  So another cot quilt to plan when I am up to 'digging' out the fabric from my extremely untidy work room.  This will be our third, and we are already wondering what this ones personality will be.  Children are all so unique, with their own ways, a bit of nature and nurture coming together to make each one with their own special personality.

I hope you are all well,

Chickpea xx